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He walked in
With his guitar in one hand
A cigarette in the other
A flask in his pocket
And a pair of aviators
Resting on his nose
Even though it was
8:30pm and the sun
Had begun to set
On the dusty little bon fire
That crackled and cackled
As it devoured the wood
We lazily poked at
Ever so often

He was wearing his
Bad ass
Kickback
Relax attitude
That reeked of whiskey
And glowed
With the glazey facade of
"I don't give a shit"

He sat down
Put his feet up
Pulled out his flask
And like so many before
Mistook alcohol
For the escape door
As he fought to forget
about his feelings for her
As memories came flooding in again

Waves of wishing
For what would have
Or could have been
Threaten to leak from his eyes
So he starts making obscene jokes
And swearing
Trying to disguise
From the transparency
That was growing
With every habitual tilt
Of the flask

Down his throat
Then
Up in flames
In his soul
To burn his scars and emotions
Because feeling brings pain
And
Pain brings erosion
Leaving shattered pieces
To burn
Then billow up and away
As he roles his head back
A completion of a breath
Blowing the smoke
From his lungs
Waiting for the freedom
To come
For a moment
To simply fly

But as the soot settles
All goes black
Leaving tar stained lungs
From tobacco
And
Nicotine
A momentary hear beat
Scars left bleeding
And emotions smoldering

The graceless equality
Where the fire destroys the wood
Then the wood destroys the fire
As every negative feeling
Begins erupting from his soul

Burping and gagging
Stumbling to his knees
With one hand on a tree
And every attempt at escaping
Came back out
The way it came in
Violently declaring
The impossibility of forgetting
The reality
That was gripping
His stomach and his throat

Allowing the drunken slur
Of brutal honesty
To wash from his eyes
Down his face
And into the earth
Where pebbles in the grass
Became tombstones
"Rest in Peace"
And
"Let it be"
Etched into their existence
As he tips forward
Roles onto his side
And closes his eyes
Falling asleep
Holding half a victory
In that even though
He'll never be able to forget about her
He can really remember
Anything that just happened either.

The end